Starting Fresh, Polyamorous

Thanks to Beginning to Bloom’s post it prompted me to look within myself and see what areas of my life can I either let go of or open up my self to explore more. I was able to relate my current #Romantic predicament to that post, so I’m just going to cut to the chase here, I have been hooking up with Sam for several months off and on. I’ve even cheated with him.

We recently met up and discussed our relationship. We can’t seem to close ourselves off from each other yet we don’t want to commit to one another. His deal is that he wants to stay open to other people in fear of missing out on his “Natalie Portman” and I just want to meet and love on multiple people. I have so much love to give and I can’t get myself to believe that we humans were born to be with just one person for the rest of our lives.

I had this thought, why don’t we start off as a polyamorous couple with no expectations.

I told him that we need to get to know each other and we will do that by spending more time together outside of the bedroom.

He agreed, we will openly date with intention and without expectations.

I will be blogging throughout this new and strange experience. I want to document my emotions and what I learn from this.

I’m doing this really cool thing called whatever I want. And by doing so, I am trying to live as honestly as I can and following my explorations and not conforming to what outside may approve or disapprove of.

First thing I need to do now is, confront Jacob, whom I’ve been seeing for a month, that I started an open relationship with a former hookup.

Ta-Ta for now,

Sydni

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