I have been MIA for a good bit and since my absence, I have attempted to quit my job and I successfully up and relocated to FUCKING FLORIDA!!!!!!!
Let’s back it up…
Several weeks ago I was on vacation with the family and just felt compelled to “re-start” my life. In my poem “I need validation” I was feeling desperate for some good ‘ole growth! And that’s just what I did.
In the process I met Emery…. and…..his encouraging words……and his sex may have had some influenced this huge leap of faith….just a tad though.
We drove back home on June 10th and arrived on the 11th. On the 10th, (while not driving) I applied to some places and holy shit when I opened my e-mail at work (not my work e-mail…I’m not stupid)…I had 3 interviews set up in Jacksonville, FL for Tuesday, June 13th, 2017. I FREAKEDOUT!
I didn’t know how I was even going to get there and how was I even going to tell my supervisor!?!?! Not only is Walton a dear friend of mine, but also is my supervisor, I didn’t know how I was going to explain this. I just knew that I HAD to explore the job market and the cost of living in Florida. I didn’t want to live with regret; to regret not doing something, not taking that chance and to not catch that opportunity.
I walked in Walton’s office, closed the door and 2 hours later I had my one-way ticket to Jacksonville, FL.
I flew into Jacksonville that Monday night of the 12th; I had no clue (AND STILL DON’T) what I was doing there.
I cannot remember a more stressful week than the week I had in Jacksonville. I walked around for a couple of days, handing out my resume and asking managers for a job. In the process, I lost my fucking voice for two whole days. It was more than frustrating, my voice is my marketing tool, resumes only say so little, and without my voice, I couldn’t express who SYDNI DRAKE is and how fucking fantastic she truly is!
I got really sick. I got really sad. I got really discouraged. I got really sad. I didn’t know why the hell I was there. I didn’t know what I was doing there. I just didn’t.
Saturday came and I woke up with an epiphany… I weathered the storm! I reflected on the week I had and thought about how I could’ve taken it 1 out of 2 ways; 1. I got sick, lost my voice, felt lonely & sad, and was discouraged all week. Time to pack up and go home OR 2. I got sick, lost my voice, felt lonely & sad and discouraged…time to buckle up and keep going. I chose the 2nd route. It was time to buckle up and keep going. That was is when I decided that I AM moving to Florida.
I flew back Sunday afternoon and met Luke who picked me up from the airport. I dreaded going home and telling my Mom that I planned on relocating to Florida and then telling my supervisors the next day.
I came home that night and told my Mom:
“Hey, Mom, I’m back!”- Me
“Did you find a job?”-Mom
“No, but I have decided I want to move to Florida.”-Me
“I knew you would. You need to spread your wings, baby girl”- Mom
God. My Mom is the most magnificent human being on the face of the Universe. She has not ever held me back from doing the things that I have wanted to do. She has let me hit some walls(thankfully not too many walls have been damaged in the process of my life)!
To all the Mothers out there, you have got to let your kids live their lives. You cannot control nor hover everything they do. You won’t be able to monitor every step they make and every breath they take, so don’t even try. But you can be there to support them every step of the way. That’s what every child needs is their parent’s love and support.
Anyway, I put in my two weeks notice and it was quickly denied.
Instead, they gave me a PROMOTION and asked me if I would be interested in working remotely!! “Sydni, no matter where you go, you will always have a job here.” Those were the beautiful words that poured from Walton’s very mouth. I couldn’t believe it!
THIS IS SUCH A DREAM. I WILL NEVER FORGET TO COUNT MY STARTS BECAUSE I AM SO STUPID LUCKY!!!
So, July 1, I set sail and safely landed on the beautiful soil of Saint Augustine.
There will be a follow-up blog that is more introspective and with what I’ve learned thus far on this journey.
I may have relocated by myself but I was never alone in the process. I cannot take all the credit. I have had a tremendous amount of help from a lot of the locals and from my family and friends. I am supported and I am really loved.
I am lucky.